Just another crappy day

I know I haven't really posted much on my blog since I started this. I have been very indecisive of what I want to write. I will just start with what I am feeling and going thru. This blog is probably is going to be my savior and my rambling thoughts of my life and my life with my Marine. Well today I found out my Marine is deploying sometime between the end of January, to the middle of February. He will be gone for 12 to 14 months. I have had mixed emotions on the whole thing. This is not something I didn't know that was going to happen. I had accepted a 7 month deployment, which up until today is what I was assuming. But, this 12 maybe 14 months is very hard to endure. I will call it like it is, very depressing bull shit. I support who he is and what he and every other Marine, Airman, soldier, etc does. I respect everything our Military does and am very thankful to them all. Going 13 to 15 months without seeing him is going to be hard. Not holding him, touching him.....You all get the picture. I know lots of wives/significant others do endure the deployments, even multiple deployments and survive. The relationships become stronger. You learn to communicate more than most civilian relationships. All you have is communication thru phones, emails and IM's. I have a very high respect for those left behind. I will be joining the ranks very soon. We have been in a long distance relationship for awhile and I am used to seeing him every 6 weeks. I have learned to deal with all of that. I just am not sure how to deal with the long, long distance crap. I will be here for him and support him every step of the way. He won't hear me complain (that is what you all are here for). I will not ever give him a reason to believe my heart is anywhere, but with him! He (Sniper) on the other hand is happy to be going back. Sniper has wanted to go back since he came back from OIF II. He knows his shit well and is very good at taking care of his guys. I am looking forward to spending the holidays with him. This will be the last time until he returns from the Sandbox. I am going to cherish this time. God watch over my Marine and his brothers and sisters, please! I am not a very religious person, but I need all the help I can get. dyzgoneby