A Phone Call, One Year Ago

June 9, 2005, Sniper called me. That call has forever changed my life. I am thinking about how far my life has changed in the last year. I can tell you exactly where I was when that call came in. Drama Queen was at her end of year pool party with her class at the local racquet ball club. I was watching her playing with her friends, taking pictures, playing with the other kids, just being a mom, when my phone rang. I looked down and my heart skipped a beat, it was Sniper. We hadn't talked in a few years, but talked as if it was just yesterday. I remember walking around, pacing and not be able to sit still. My heart was jumping out of my skin. I must have paced around the pool 50 times, walked the parking lot a good 20 times and I don't know how many times around the building. That day is forever etched in my head. We made plans to meet the following day. That day would be one year ago today. I saw Sniper for the first time in 10 years. It is funny how I can remember everything that went through my head, the feelings I had and the countless outfits I changed in and out of. I can remember it all as if it was yesterday. How different will he look? damn yummy How different will I look to him? two kids later and a very short hair cut Will it seem if the time has not passed? not at all Will there be that quiet moment, where we both think WTF? never happened for me Will this outfit look better than the last 10? yes, I changed way too many times. I am a female after all Will he take one look at me and turn around and run? nope Will he like the person I have become? I sure hope so Will that spark still be there? no question about that, hands down We went to see "Mr. & Mrs. Smith" with Bubba, Bubba's girlfriend, and his nephew T. I sat next to him very nervous. I remember my hands being so sweaty and clammy. I tried to watch the movie, but my mind kept wandering on where I was at and with whom. The man I have loved for 15 years. I kept thinking I was dreaming. I had dreamed for so long about Sniper and never really thought our paths would cross again. I am so grateful they have. He has always and will always be my soul mate. After we dropped off the kids, we drove around for a few hours. I remember him stopping his truck, parking and us talking (get your minds out of the gutter) for a long time. I remember Sniper, unbuttoning his shirt, grabbing my hand and placing it over his heart. I will never forget that feeling. He told me "I have always had his heart. " As I close my eyes, I can still see it as if was happening, I can still feel his hand on mine. I was shaking like a leaf. I will never forget the good night kiss. It was like the first time all over again. I didn't want to leave. Right then and there I realized, this is where I have belonged all these years, right in his arms. From that day forward, our lives have forever changed. I never would have thought that night, a year later, I would be sitting here waiting for him to return home to me from Iraq or we would be planning our future together. It's funny that neighborhood we were driving around in, I live there now. A little while ago, I was thinking about all this, when my phone rings. Right on que, it was Sniper. I answered the phone laughing and told him what I had been thinking about. Wow, one year later. dyzgoneby Sniper, We have came so far in this last year. I never thought our lives would be where they are at now. I am so grateful you gave it one more shot with that phone call. This road we are on isn't an easy one. Life is never easy, but with the love we have the ride will be enjoyable. You have always been the one and only who holds the key to my heart. I love you with all my heart, body and soul. I always have. "Love is sometimes denied, sometimes lost, sometimes unrecognized, but in the end, always found with no regrets, forever valued and kept treasured."