Sleep and Dreams
Not much is happening around these parts in the last few days. I work, study, sleep and have not touched the sprinklers since some nameless person broke them (whatcha talkin about Willis?) A few nights ago, I was almost asleep when the phone rang. Sniper and I talked for a minute, then he said he would call me back. Twenty minutes go by and I was almost asleep again, when the phone rings. Shook the cobwebs out of my head and we talked for a little while. Sniper's shoulder is doing better everyday. I asked him how much longer he is on light duty? I already knew the answer, but had to ask anyway. He is back at it and running missions again. Another words doing his job and what he needs to be doing. We talked for a few and he had to go, duty calls. That night I couldn't sleep for shit. I tossed, turned and when sleep finally came the nightmare's came back full force. I woke-up drenched in sweat. You know the one's you wake-up and can't decipher it was a dream or real. Way to vivid. I won't get into what I dreamed about, but it wasn't good. Here we go again.... Yesterday, I sat back and tried to think of why my sleep sucked again. Duh..... When Sniper was put on light duty, I knew he would be relatively safe for a little while. Well, as safe as one can be inside the wire with Motars coming in. I seemed to sleep a little more peacefully than I had in awhile. When my head acknowledged he is back to doing his job, my imagination came back to life. I know this is normal and I am not the only one who has these types of dreams. It could be worse, I could actually be dreaming of the shit happening around me. dyzgoneby 5 days smoke free, gaining weight by the minute and dreaming of some crazy shit |
Comments on "Sleep and Dreams"
Hey sounds so familiar. You are going to have to lock those babies in a closet somewhere and relax your mind enough to sleep there lady. It is tough and so easy to say but so hard to do. I know. Just know that Sniper loves you very much and that he is going to be as careful as he can be and do his and get the heck back here for you. Remind yourself of that nightly. It won't solve everything but you might get to sleep a little better.
Sniper knows that he has alot to come home to and no matter what he will be home. We always have to remember that. I know that it is hard to always try and think positive with him over there but like always he will be home. He may have a few more scars but he will be home. With every deployment you become stronger. Over time the feelings of fear will subside. You'll hear his voice and know that he is okay. Soon hopefully he will be back and the fear the worry will all be gone. He is a strong man dyz. You and I both know that his love for family and friends will bring him back safe. If you need to talk you know how to find me. Take care sweetie!!
Christy....I am trying to lock those babies in the closet, they just keep finding there way out again. I am tempted to make a few stiff drinks before bed & see if that helps.
Heather....He definately will have a few more scars to love when he comes home. Just hopefully, won't add anymore like he has been lately. And yes, we both know what a strong-willed / stubborn man he is.... LOL
I am somewhat afraid of my dreams. First trip to the shitbox, I dreamed he was hurt. Guess what? That was the percise moment he was hurt and almost didn't make it.
The dreams lately, haven't been of him in the shitbox, but when he is on his way home....This scares me.
Goodness girl. Shove them in a sealed off box and throw those babies in the bottom of the ocean somewhere and hope they don't make their way back out.
I know what you mean on the stiff drinks. I get the coolers every now and again and have a few of them. Man after that people just better leave me a lone. I am to relaxed to deal with stupid people.
My nights of tossing and turning are almost over. I am really anxious now, just knowing Dan is on the move traveling home.
The knowing nothing is hell!
You know what will help you sleep? Push ups!!!!!!! NOW DROP AND GIVE ME 10,000 or your arms fall off which ever comes first.
Hope everything works out for you.