Sacrifices
| This morning I received a phone call from Sniper. "Honey, you need to sit down. Are you Sitting?" "Yep" thinking now what the fuck. "I was hurt again. I'm ok, I dislocated my shoulder in a fire fight. They already popped it back in." "Ok" I am ok with this He told me what happened. He kicked some ass, took some insurgents in custody and shot some (ok a shit load) of rounds off. He is fine. They have him on light duty for the next 5 days and then will re-evaluate him. He might need to be sent to Germany for a MRI. (He will keep me posted. My cousin is stationed there and will meet up with him for a few beers if this happens) They are also putting him in for another Purple Heart. We talked for a few and he heard the kids in the background. That's when I got my ass majorly chewed. For what? Not studying like I should. I have been slacking. "You are Fucking with our future. Not the immediate future, but the next 50 years." Ouch! I tried to bullshit him a little on how it was going. That was the wrong thing to do. (Unclejim, I am counting off, let me know when I am finished). Boy did I royally piss him off and I promise to never bullshit him again. I have never in 15 years heard him raise his voice to me. Ever. Well, I got it good. He is a Marine and boy did it kick in this morning. I would hate to be under his command and piss him off. Wait, I am, I think. Then, "I am hanging up. I will call you back. I need to cool off." "Are you sure?" I think I fucked up "When the fuck have I not ever done what I told you what I would do?" We hung up. I know he is not only pissed at me, he is frustrated with being put on light duty. I was just in the wrong place, wrong time and said the wrong things. Boy am I learning quick. I am not taking it too personal. He called me back a little while later. It's all Good. We talked about sacrifices, his and mine. I hear him loud and clear. I was able to talk to Sgt L who overheard the whole thing (remember, he loves to put other Marines on the phone with me. Besides I have talked to Sgt L before. He's good people). I told him this was not fun to get my ass chewed. He asked if it was still there. "Nope, only half." Then the Sgt L said "It will grow back." At this rate, it won't grow back until sometime next year. Sniper was able to talk to my mom today as well. This is the first time he had talked to her since he left. It lifted his spirits. My mom told him she loved him and to stay safe. That meant the world to him. Why? Years ago, she told him, "to let me go". We know he didn't, but none the less that conversation has played in his head for a long time. I was happy my parent's were here and able to talk to him. I am off to study........... I PROMISE. I AM NOT FUCKING WITH OUR FUTURE! I HEAR YOU LOUD AND CLEAR OVER THE MILES. dyzgoneby 1, 2, 3, 4....I am sorry 5, 6, 7, I will not bullshit you again 8, 9, 10 I am going to study now 11, 12 13, I promise 14, 15 ,16 ok I hear you 17 , 18, 19 please let me off this ride 20, 21, 22 I am getting tired here 23, 24, 25 help 26, 27, 28 I get what sacrifices are 29, 30, 31 I love you with all my heart Sniper 32, 33, 34.......... |
posted by dyzgoneby at 5/20/2006 11:42:00 AM
Comments on "Sacrifices"
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Chimney Cleaning New Rochelle said ... (5:13 AM) :
post a commentOOOOOOOO you gonna have ta get more booty for him to chew on at this rate. I am glad that he is okay though. Thanks for the update my dear. Are you really okay with this? Least it was something minor but still does not help since you can not see for yourself.
You have to understand the culture, kid.
Marines have it drilled into them, over and over, you put out your best effort every time.
There is no " good enough".
Marines have this priority:
Work
Subordinates
Family
pleasure.
They expect themselves to put out 100%, and in return it is expected from subordinates and family.
If you don't quite understand, rent a copy of "The Great Santini".
I have not posted anyting on my blog in awhile, but I did today. So take a break from the push ups and get over to DROP AND GIVE ME 20 !!!!
Christy....I really am OK. I still feel like shit for disappointing him though. You live and learn.
Dan-gerous...I am going to have to check out "The Great Santini." I have never heard of him.
As for "there is no good enough" I have always pushed myself harder than anyone. This time around on this, it has been hard to push myself. I realize it is all on my shoulders and need to get my sh*t together. 4 weeks and counting to the test.
Unclejim....I know he was hard on me, but the one thing over the years we have had between us is honesty and no "bullshit." I broke that this time and I did deserve what I got. I don't want him to always tell me the lovey dovey crap (don't get me wrong I love to hear that as well), I want to hear how he is feeling. All of it.
With that said, I can push back and stand my ground. One of the hardest roads we have is "my independence" (remember me not listening to him about the alarm). I don't take shit or orders from anyone. Never have. I have the tendancy to do the opposite of what someone tells me to, because I can. Him and I are having to learn the give and take roll.
Him being a Marine and having it bred into his head, he is in charge and everyone will listen is going to take time for him to learn I am not one of his Marines, but I am his soul mate. Does this make sense?
Off to study.....no more push-ups today, my arms are killing me.
One more thing,
I need to learn to not be as independent, rely on him and listen to him. He has been right on target on the things I haven't listened to him.
afsister.....I too wish you were closer. I would take you up on that offer to help with the studying. You are going to have to spill on your lesson learned. LOL
Greaat reading your blog