Say A Prayer for Sniper

I am asking for prayers here. Not for me, but Sniper. This deployment has already been a long hard one and he is only three and a half months into it. I believe he has a angel that has wrapped his wings around him and protected him. I truly believe God (call the higher power what ever you choose), is looking out for him. But for how long? How many close calls can one have until there is no more? How many times can one cheat death? How many lives can one have? And yes, how many times can one be hit by an IED and survive? I am hoping it gets better soon, but I am not counting on it. Until he is on US soil I will pray for his safety, that God keeps his hands wrapped around him and all of his unit through this deployment. I am holding on to the faith I had forgotten for so long. I am holding on to the faith that God will hold him tight and bring him home to all of us, his family. Tomorrow night after work I am heading up to Lake Tahoe for the weekend. My cousin Mike is getting married. My other cousin Matt (his brother) is home on leave. Yep, he is also in the military as well (Army). Matt is currently stationed in Germany, has a beautiful wife and a baby on the way. Sometime this winter he is heading back to Iraq for the 2nd time. He was there for opening theater. I am going to hold tight to him this weekend. I haven't seen him in over a year and it will be another year and a half until our paths cross again. This weekend I am leaving everything behind me. This deployment, my studying, my house, my kids, all this fucking stress. This weekend is all about me. Yeah, I talk a good game, but I know the deployment will be in my head the whole time. I want to relax. I want to have fun. It's just hard when all I think of is where Sniper is at, what is going on around him. I feel guilty when I am having fun and he is not here enjoying LIFE. Last weekend at the concert, as much fun as I had, I still kept thinking about him and how he should be with us. I looked at other couple's and the ache in my heart increases. This weekend it will be intensified as I watch my cousin get married. As I watch my parents together. As I watch almost everyone around me, as a couple. Me, I will be alone. I am not asking for pity or sorrow for myself. I choose this life, sorta. You can't tell yourself who you will fall in love with. There is no control in who you love. As least there never has been for me. I have always loved Sniper and always will. He will always have my heart. I'm not having a pity party here. Reality has just dealt me another blow. dyzgoneby You know the song by Carrie Underwood "Jesus Take The Wheel?" That about sums up my thinking right about now.