Studying Here

Today, I spent the majority of the day studying. I don't know how I did this shit in college. It is killing my head. I have a major headache from all the brain power I am having to utilize. I think about finishing this exam and know I have two more behind it. The only thing keeping me going is the end result. Oh shit, it's going to be a very long, boring summer. I have had to relinquish my kids to Jedi until this first exam is over. I only see them now every other weekend. This has been hard on all of us. I miss my kids dearly. Drama Queen has lived with me since she was born and hasn't had to go but a week here and there without seeing me. Even when she spends the weeks with Jedi, I always stop by to spend time with the munchkins. I have been telling her, "Thank you for supporting Mommy in this. I am making a better life for all of us." She understands. She calls me everynight and tells me "Who is going to beat this test?" "Mommy." She has became my personal cheerleader. I love her for it. I have always been a very busy person with a full-time job, being a mom, keeping up with my house and my part-time business. Now I have thrown in the mix spending time with Bubba, writing long letters most nights (some nights he just gets a huge "I Love You" across a piece of paper, more so lately) and shopping for care packages. Then I have added trying to find time to study, it sucks. There are not enough hours in the day. Sniper and I wanted to have something to keep me busy and my mind occupied. Looking at it now, I wouldn't have had that problem. As Sniper always tells me, I keep piling too much on my plate and one of the days it is going to bite me in the ass. He's right. dyzgoneby counting down until September when I can relax a little