Dreams

My phone rang at 0120 last night and it was Sniper. Apparently this was the third time he called. I got the message on the answering machine sweetheart. He wanted to let me know he had just returned from another Mission. This one lasted about 5 days outside the wire. He had let me know before he left that he would be gone for awhile and not to worry if I don't hear from him. We talked for awhile and then we hung up, just when the cobwebs were starting to shake out of my head. It took me about an hour to go back to sleep. Then I had very vivid dreams of him the remainder of the night. I dreamed of him coming home and suprising me, looking like a different man. It was him, but didn't look like him. Completely changed. Over the course of that dream, he became the man I knew. I also dreamed of him rescuing strangers. A child on a bike was hit by a car and him rescuing the child. Very weird. I got out of bed and have been trying to decipher the dreams since. Is it my subconscious telling me what to expect? That he will come home much different from the last time. Still the same man, but not the same. I know he is still trying to deal with the shit in his head from the last one and this time getting hurt. What about him trying to rescue strangers? Children? Is this him trying to rescue the Iraqis? Or something else? I am not sure how to take them, but the first one scares me. I get in my car this morning and every damn song on the radio reminds me of him. At work it was the same thing. I have been very quiet, yes quiet, solemn and crying silent tears today. My mood is just somber. I think part of the reason is, I was ok not hearing from him and knowing he was ok. No news is good news, but when he called to tell me he was back, the stress that should have been relieved was intensified. I was scared to know what shit he went through. No, he doesn't tell me very much. The unspoken words are enough not to ease my fears. Some of the things we discussed last night errr morning haven't sat well with me. I know he is a damn good Marine and takes care of his men first. He is still going out before anyone else. I am proud of him for it. I just worry about him. I worry about all of them.....that's just my nature. UncleJim: You came up in our conversation this morning. He loved your story about the mouthwash. He was laughing his ass off on that one. He had to report to the post office when he got back as one of my packages I sent to him were broken. He was worried. What was in there? How much trouble he was going to get into? Did a bottle of mouthwash break open? Nope it was all good. Just some otterpops that didn't make it. I have been trying to send him my posts and the comments off of here. If anyone would like to share something with him, I will make sure he gets it. dyzgoneby 327 days until I see how much he has changed Sniper, I will always love you with all my heart Standing Proudly beside my US Marine