Missing Sniper
| Just me whining here. It's 0212 and I sit here another night not being able to sleep. My mind wanders on where Sniper is at. What he is doing? How safe he is? Is he warm? How adjacent to danger has he come again? I have a pretty good idea and that doesn't help. I know these feelings are perfectly normal for the families left at home. They are very close in my mind. They don't stay at bay very long. No matter how hard I try to stay busy. There is always down time. Whether it's a few minutes during the day or when I lay my head down at night to sleep. I really believe sometimes it is harder for the wives / fiances / girlfriends left behind. It's just a different emptiness than for a parent or family member. We are the ones who don't have our soul mate to console when the nights are long. We are the ones who don't have the other partner at home to talk to. Relent and relinquish our thoughts, feelings, emotions, anxiety, apprehension and reservations with. We are the ones who don't have are significant other to just hold onto or hug. Family and friends are great to help get you through, but there are somethings that they just can't help you with. It's not the same. It's been a while since I have had a night like this. Most of my days and nights are just flying by. Then there are some nights like tonight. I miss picking up the phone and calling him. I miss staying up all night talking with him and realizing it is 0530 and we haven't been to bed yet. I miss cuddling with him when we sleep. The bed is awfully empty. I miss his smile, pictures don't provide the justice. I miss his laugh, it's not the same over the phone. I miss his jokes. I miss him dancing with me. I miss the goofy stuff we do together. I miss his smell. I miss his touch. I miss just the sight of him. Oh Hell, I just Miss him period. We have hit the 3 month mark in this deployment with so many more months to go. I am not getting discouraged. Some night's are just harder than other's. Dyzgoneby Proudly Standing By My US Marine Sniper, I Love You With All My Heart |
posted by dyzgoneby at 4/22/2006 02:12:00 AM
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post a commentHi sweetie....
I could tell by the comment you left on my site that you were in a blue mood. It was very "flat", if that's a way of describing it. It would appear I was right. I'm just as transparent. The words I use when writing comments always give away my emotions- good, bad, or indifferent.
Big Hugs, honey! Big, giant, virtual shoulders too.
Aw, honey - I'm sorry you're missing Sniper so bad. I can't believe how tough this must be on you and other spouses/girlfriends ... you're much tougher than I would be!
{{Hugs}} from here as well!
Thank you both from the bottom of my heart.
The weekend started out blue and my mood picked up. My kids and Bubba have a way of doing that.
Sniper's call tonight helped a lot.
Keep your head up girl. I'm pulling for ya.
Katie had a day like that Sunday. She came in from spending the day with her dad, had a scowl on her face, and buried herself in her room. Five minutes later she IM'd me. She wanted to talk to me, but also wanted to be alone...so we talked over the IM for a while. She was missing Seth so bad that day and it just came out of nowhere after a perfectly enjoyable day. I felt so bad for her and wished there was something I could do to help, but all I could do was listen...and that seemed to help. I know that there will be more days like that for Katie, and for you...but I also know that you'll both be okay because you're both strong. Hang tough!!!