100 Days Down

As of 0815 this morning Sniper has been gone 100 days and way too many more to go. Yes, I am a little weird and have the days down to the minute. I also know the days, weeks and months left to go. A little obsessive if you ask me. The first 6 weeks were extremely hard. Now, it is just a day here and there. I was told it gets easier in someways and my mind couldn't comprehend this. I get it now. Some days and weeks have flown by and others have just dragged. It does seem like forever since the last time I saw him. What keeps me going? The obvious, my love for him. I still hear from other's, I don't know how you do it? You just do. If you love someone that much in your heart, you will do whatever it takes. You don't just cut and run simply because someone is gone for awhile. Being connected in heart to a Military person you have a simple choice, you either accept it or you move on. For me, I accept and am damn proud of him. Does it make a difference that we are not married? Nope, my love is no different. Something else that has kept me going, all the support I have received from all of you, my support boards and writing here. Thank you. My family doesn't understand like all of you do. The Marine and military families I have connected with have been amazing. I look forward to small bench marks. A call from him, our memories of the times we shared and the new ones we will make and getting through these damn tests for us for our future. Again, thank you all for all the support. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. dyzgoneby 326 days to go, give or take a few