Fate

Do you ever believe in fate? Do you believe things happen for a reason? That someone is always looking out for you from somewhere else? I am really trying to decipher what I believe in. I am not a religious person, but... Sniper came into my life in the beginning of this last summer. I was in a horrible relationship. My ex-boyfriend (Jackass) and I lived together for 3 years. Right after we moved in together Jackass' business went under. I was supporting him and his daughter, along with myself and my 2 kids. I didn't make enough to survive with all of us. He had no motivation and didn't pursue looking for a job. I was even helping to pay his ex-wife child support (the women made over a 6 figure income) I have a huge heart and didn't want to put him and his daughter out on the streets. Not considering he was very depressed and I was afraid he would kill himself. After 2 years he finally started working as a janitor. I didn't give a f*ck what he did, he needed to help out financially. I sucked it up and dealt with all of his bullshit for 3 very long years. My kids couldn't stand him. I didn't love him, I just tolerated him. We were mere roommates, and I was trying to figure out a way to move out. When Sniper walked back into my life, I knew something had to change. I loved this man (Sniper) with all my heart and had for years. Timing was just never right. I finally decided to move out and into a place of my own, close by my ex-husband (Jedi) and close by Sniper's family. The kids spent the weekend with one of us and during the week Jedi had our son and I had our daughter. We now completely share custody. He has them one week and I have them the next. He works nights and I work days, so he takes them back and forth to school and I pick them up after work. No daycare. Just family. We both now see the kids everyday. And it's great when the other one needs a babysitter. I was still working out by my old house (a 1 1/2 hour to 2 hour drive away). After a few months of dealing with the long commute and not picking up the kids and getting home at 6:45pm, I transferred offices, 10 minutes away from both of us. Besides the potential to make more money at the office was great. Well, a week and a half ago, my boss left. The reason I took the office was not only my boss (Gunny) and I got along great, he retired from the Marine Corps 2 years ago (21 years of active service). We had a lot in common. I knew he would completely understand everything I was going through being with a Marine (deployments, moves, needing time off at the last minute, etc). Well shit! When he left and the news of Sniper leaving I was devastated. No one will understand or be supportive of what my next year and half is going to be like like Gunny. Gunny called me today. His new business wants him to bring me on. They will double my salary and pay to get my licenses. Yes, I will have to be licensed. I work for a brokerage firm and currently don't need to have my licenses. If I decide to actively pursue this ( I would be a fool not to), it will coincide when Sniper leaves. I will have to study a for a few months for the tests (and they are extremely hard to pass). Back to fate...... If I hadn't talked to Sniper, I would still be living in a shitty environment. If I hadn't talked to Sniper, I wouldn't have this time with my son (and Jedi with our daughter. I now have my son all the time, Jedi has our daughter (we share). My kids are very happy. If I hadn't talked to Sniper, I would still be in a different office without the potential for a wonderful job, with a great potential to make enough money to buy a home on my own if I want to (California is very expensive and hard to own a home with one income, but I would be able to with no problem). If I hadn't talked to Sniper, I would still be wondering what my life would be like with him. I now don't have to worry, I know what it is like. I have a wonderful full life to spend with the man I have loved for the last 15 years. This road I am traveling towards, with the job, I would be studying like crazy the first couple of months Sniper leaves. This would keep me busy where I wouldn't have time to dwell on the months ahead. So is this fate? or something else? I don't know what to believe. But, I do know whomever is looking our for me, I am very thankful and appreciative. Just when you think everything is turning to shit, something better comes along. dyzgoneby