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Ok, I feel a little better. This pretty much sums up my life right now: Studying. The time is coming closer to this exam and the pressure is mounting. I have other things going on as well (happy things), and I can't seem to get excited about jack shit. Sniper will be home sometime before the end of summer and I haven't been able to truly start to feel the butterflies. I am excited to see him, just my head is full with Bonds, Options, Margin Accounts, IPO's.....Ya'll get the picture. I am thinking about homecoming with him, but I want to Revel in it. I want to daydream of it. I want to help plan it. I want to make "Homecoming Signs." I want to do all those silly things you think about to make Homecoming memorable for him. I have something else coming up I have wanted to do for years and I haven't even had time to get excited about that either. You will have to search through my blog to figure it out. Other's have asked me if I am excited. Nope, I can't get past this test. I really didn't think it would consume my life like it has. I really need to find someway to blow some steam off and soon. Smoking is starting to sound better each day. Don't worry, I have only screwed up twice. Friday, I had a "Girls Night Out" with some friends of mine. We ended up at a Country Bar and spent the evening Line Dancing. It would have been cool, if I knew how. I gave it my best try (a little drinking helped) and I did ok. I had fun and that's all that counts. I was hoping that would be enough "steam" to help me out. Nope. Sunday, the kids and I went see Pirates' of the Caribbean. It was wonderful to escape reality for a few hours. The movie was excellent. I promise I won't give any details away. Let's just say, the three of us can't wait until the next one comes out. It defiantly leaves you hanging and wanting more, but the ending did piss me off for doing that. Back to blowing some steam......hmmmmmm........I haven't been out to the range in awhile, maybe I will have to head out there this week. Shooting the shit out of paper targets and imagining them as something else, might just be what the "doctor" ordered. Then again, the "doctor" might be better off just running. (I love you Sniper and no I don't listen for shit). Intermission over, back to studying. dyzgoneby, Soon life will be back to the way it was before......Quiet and boring. YEAH!!!! I am looking forward to it.