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    Name: dyzgoneby
    Location: California, United States

    I am married to a wonderful Marine and a mother of 5 darling children. Sniper has been home from his second tour in the Shitbox since July 2006. This will be my rants, raves and rumblings with my life with him as a Marine Wife, him dealing with life post Iraq and the Marine Corps next adventure for us. At times I may whine, I may cry and there maybe times I just don't make any sense and you think WTF. These are my feelings and my feelings alone. If you don't like what I have to say, click the "X" in the right corner and move on. Thank a vet for having that choice. If not, sit back and enjoy the peak into my crazy world.

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    Thursday, July 06, 2006

    Standing on the Edge

    You ever feel like you are standing on the edge of a cliff and not sure which direction to head? Your not sure if you should jump, run the other direction or just drop where you are at and curl into a ball and cry. I am at that point. I am teetering on the edge and I am realizing if something doesn't give soon, I am going over. I know I need to let somethings go, but I am not sure how or what.

    I have already given-up my kids for the last 8 weeks (I miss the hell out of them and can't wait to get back to a normal life). I have already given up my side business (someday I will go back to it). I gave up cleaning my house (don't look at all the dust bunnies everywhere). I gave up putting laundry away (you should see the huge clothes pile in my room). I gave up doing yard work (I don't think anyone wants to continue to fix everything I break anyway). I am trying to stay off the computer more. There isn't much left.

    I work (think about Sniper and the exam), study (think about Sniper and the exam), sleep (think about Sniper and the exam). Pretty exciting life I lead. So why can't the stress just go away.

    I am also too the point where other's are taking notice and feeling it as well.

    A few weeks ago is when I started to notice it more. My mom called me to say good morning, within the first minute I yelled at her and told her I had to go. It wasn't until a few hours later, when I looked down at the calendar, realized I had f*cked up good, it was my mom's birthday. I ended up calling her back crying and apologizing, but the damage had been done. She may have forgiven me, but I haven't forgiven myself. This morning my mom called as usual and I let loose on her again, then started crying. I don't think she is going to put up with my bullshit much longer. My emotions are running all over the place again.

    At work today, Gunny pulled me aside and asked me if I was ok. I answered him with my typical response "Yep, I'm good to go." He could feel the stress radiating off of me and asked if I regretted transferring with him. Nope, I am happy with the decision I/we made. I am looking forward of taking care of Sniper and being his Sugar Momma. I just want to get past these damn exams, they are truly killing me.

    Studying for this exam has been a bitch (which at the rate I am going isn't going to happen in 2 weeks). Some of this shit just isn't sinking in. I am trying, but my mind just continues to wonder elsewhere.

    And right on queue.....It just dawned on me as I was reading the first few paragraphs of this, my mood turned to shit when I became side lined from my ankles. I need to get off my lazy ass and do something. If it wouldn't be pushing it and wasn't so dark out tonight I would take a run. Not that I can run quiet yet, but soon. I can walk a few miles though.....

    hmmmm, maybe I will get a flashlight.....

    I am going to have to try this tomorrow and hope that helps my mood. The only other thing would be holding Sniper in my arms, but I have to wait just a little while longer for that.

    dyzgoneby
    Sniper, soon you can come put your boot up my ass and keep me in line.....maybe. Then again, I think I will relent and start listening to you. I love you.

    posted by dyzgoneby at 7/06/2006 09:37:00 PM

    Comments on "Standing on the Edge"

     

    Blogger kbug said ... (9:45 AM) : 

    Girl, you are stressing out...stop it!!! Just remember one thing...Sniper will be home soon. So take a deep breath, put a smile on your face (how can you not when you think about that), and stop worrying about everything..... :)

     

    Blogger AFSister said ... (11:36 AM) : 

    You're gonna give yourself a migraine with all those thoughts running marathons through your head. Yes, it's extremely stressful studying for that test, but it's doable. You're a smart cookie. I have faith in you, and so do a LOT of other people.

    Try studying in the bathtub. mmm mmm good!

     

    Blogger ladybug said ... (1:40 PM) : 

    you are a strong woman, and you can do anything... we are all beside you cheering you on!

    love,
    ladybug

    PS - thanks a million for listening to my rambly email :)

     

    Blogger "Frankly Opinionated" said ... (5:05 PM) : 

    Hey DGB:
    If yer not standin' on the edge, yer takin' up too much space.
    nuf sed

     

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