Days Are Coming Closer

As the days to Sniper's leave are coming closer to an end, reality is starting to set in again. We have both enjoyed spending this time together. It's been wonderful having him home. Yes Sniper home, "our" home. It's been wonderful getting up in the morning and having him there right next to me. It's been wonderful coming home at night to the man I love. Coming home and getting that much needed hug and kiss after a long day at work has been comforting. Looking into his eyes and feeling all the love we have for each other. Soon, a phone call will have to suffice. It's been wonderful climbing in to our bed at night and cuddling up next to him. Hopefully, this will only be for a few months and then he will be home with us, his family. We have been spending the last couple of weeks looking at a house, a home for "us." It wasn't something we planned, but something we stumbled upon. The house is absolutely beautiful and we both feel in love with it. It is a home perfect for us to raise our family in, grow in, plenty of room for a family of five maybe even six. No I am NOT pregnant, even thought I dream about what it would be like to have a child with the only one who ever mattered in my life. However, we both years ago made a decision that will not allow us to allow this to happen. Wingman might be the sixth one. All in all, we are hoping it works out and we will have a new home, our home. It has me realizing how much I am going to miss him when he goes back to Camp Pendleton. It has me thinking about how lonely and heartbreaking it is going to be when life goes back to the way it was. How hard it is going to be to say "good-bye" if only temporary. My heart is already breaking thinking about it and let's face it, it's hard NOT to think about reality. Until then, I will cherish this time, no matter how short it is becoming with him. We have grown closer to each other in the last 3 weeks then I could have ever imagined. My love for him continues to grow stronger by the day. How is that possible? I never fathomed that one. Standing next to him I can feel the love we have radiate off of the both of us. We are still adjusting to "us." Life is not perfect and we will always have these adjustments, issues, heated discussions (this one has been interesting to say the least) and lots of love to give each other. Rather it is issues from him deploying, him coming home from a deployment, something the Marine Corps threw his way or just your everyday run of the mill life in general. We will take it head on, together. dyzgoneby Sniper, I love you with all my heart and saying good-bye if only temporary is going to be hard at the end of the month. We will just have to look deep inside our hearts, to hold on to the distance that will separate us.