Why am I still wanting to hide?

For a few days I was fine. I felt like things were going back to normal. Sniper leaves for a few days and I seem to have fallen back to wanting to hide. I spent this weekend holed up in my room and didn't leave. I ignored 95% of my phone calls. Sniper's was the only one's I answered, but it was until after the 4th or 5th call and then it was when he called the house phone. I know this is bothering him that I haven't answered on the first call. When he was in Iraq, I answered every phone call from him. My cell phone went every with me (even when I took a shower). Now, I just seem to leave it behind. Where ever it falls is where it stays. I did do some studying, but not as much as I should have. I sat, listened to music and just stared at the blank walls around me. Completely lost in thoughts. I just don't get it......He's home, so why can't I stop worrying? dyzgoneby