My Birthday

Just another day. Another day I would like to forget. Partly because I am few short years away from 40. Boy am I feeling it. But, the biggest reason....one year ago today, Sniper was hurt by the IED explosion. Yes, I know, everyone is told me (including Sniper), I need to get over it and not let the day depress me, but it does. I need to not think about it and cherish life. Believe me I do, more than most will ever fathom. However, I have watched him for the last several months go through the torments and the demons he harbors. I watch him sleep, well try to sleep. I watch when he does sleep, the demons he fights. I watch the nightmares come all to quick. I watch his quick temper. I watch him struggle to deal with him trying to understand why he is still alive, safe and sound, home with his family and the other Marine is still in a hospital. The other Marine never to return to his wife and family the way he was when he deployed. I watch his frustrations he deals with on a daily basis. I watch helpless...nothing I can do. I know this wasn't the only time he was hurt, blew up in an IED explosion and another Marine with him was hurt or killed, but this one hit close to home for me.This one I saw with my own two eyes. So, this is a day I would like to forget, though I am extremely grateful I have Sniper home safe and sound. Well at least on US soil....... dyzongeby