Feeling a Little Down

I hate it when the house is so quiet and with all this rain it is so depressing. Today, I watched the news of the Marines killed near al Asad. You can read here. I know better than to pay attention, but it is hard not to. My heart always stops beating and the my insides go numb. I need to realize it is just torture to myself to watch, but I can't help it. Needless to say, it was a emotional day for me. I didn't cry on the outside, my heart just felt like it was being ripped to shreds from the inside out. Then I just felt very numb. Those around me never suspected a thing. Tonight I come home to a very quiet house. Too quiet, I can't seem to do anything. I have ended up holding up in my room, staring at my computer and pictures of Sniper. I just miss him so much. I'm tired, maybe that is my problem. I need to have a drink, long hot bath and then hit the rack. I haven't had a day/night like this in a while. Damn rollercoaster. I want off of this ride and to wake-up next year, but that's not reality. Tomorrow is another day. ______________________________ Though we are so far apart, Forever I feel you in my heart. You make me feel so loved, Like feelings sent from Him above. Just the thought of you My Dear, Makes me wish that you were here. I close my eyes and what I see, Is the man I long for to be with me. Every little thought of you, Makes me glad of who we did choose. Thank you God from my heart, Though we are so far apart. Dyzgoneby 354 days to go