Still Here and still Adjusting

It's been almost five months since the last time I posted anything. I just wanted to enjoy the time at home with our family adjusting. I have had so many things I have wanted to post or say, good and bad, but it is been hard to put my thoughts down and publish it. I have kept it all bottled up inside. Sniper keeps commeting that he misses all the posts I use to write. So this one is for you. It has been a huge adjustment on all of us. Just because someone becomes a civilian overnight does not mean anything will change. Issues that were there do not change in one day. He has been out of the Marine Corps for five months now and it has been difficult, frustrating, sad, depressing, happy, invigrating, joyful...you all get the picture. The Marine Corps is his life and whom he is. Somethings will never change. He is at home being a "House Dad" "House Hubby" or my favorite "House Bitch." The kids love having him home all day and I love having him at home too. It has given him time to readjust to a life he hasn't lived in years. It also gives him a chance to heal. Thankfully because we were able to plan for it, it has given him a chance to not worry about the financial part (for now). This week has been a long one for us all. Monday, was 2 years ago when SSgt Iceman and SSgt Sniper met that fateful day that changed so many lives. A day none of us will ever forget and some that will relive everyday. Anyone who read this blog, knows exactly what I am talking about. You can see it here. That day changed the path that has lead Sniper where he is at today (amongst a few others). I watch those eyes of his that burrow into his soul and there are so many times I see the emptiness, the sadnes and the hatred. His eyes tell more than his words. I still sit here day after day unable to help him, still helpless. Sniper has a favorite saying "For those who protect it, Freedom has a taste the protected will never know." Those words are so true on so many different levels. As a civilain, I will never understand, as a wife I will understand more than most. I relive so many of those times with him. Many things he never wanted me to know. Some he doesn't know or remember I know. Most I have seen through his eyes, his words, his actions and one I have seen through the video. Dyzgoneby aka Mrs. Sniper "Yea though I walk through the valley of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me." I hope and pray SSgt Iceman and his family have found some peace.