It's the End of The Month and...

My emotions have been on overload over the last several weeks. This damn test has been kicking my ass. That's not including all the bullshit with my emotions I have been putting Sniper through. I know I have drove him insane. One minute I think I can do this, the next minute I know I am going to fail. One minute I am happy, the next I am crying like a baby. The highs and lows are crazy. My stomach probably has a huge hole in it from all the stress. And no Sniper, I promise I am not going to have a heart attack. You will get the next 70 plus years with me. Sniper has been my rock and savior through this all. He knows just what to say. His words of wisdom have helped, a lot. "It's just a test." Sniper is the only one I have been talking to in the last few weeks. I have cut myself off from everyone else, his family included. I miss them all so much. Ooohhhh so very soon, I will have my life back. Now with that being said: I PASSED MY SERIES 7!!!!!!!! YEAH HHOOO!!!!! Can you feel how excited I am? I took the exam today and it was a grueling six hour exam. One I will never, ever have to do again. Ever....I think you get the point. Next week I will start studying for the next one, Series 66. My goal is to have them all done by the first of the year. Then I can be a Sugar mamma. The hardest part about passing the exam, is not having Sniper home to share it with. Yes, I know he is on US Soil, but he is not at home with me. All I want to do is celebrate with him.....soon, very soon. Besides this damn test, life has been harder on the both of us than we realized. The distance has been really getting to the both of us and eating at us. Pre-deployment we could go 4 to 6 weeks. Now, a day seems like to long. The days and nights are so lonely without him. It's depressing. We have grown extremely close over the last few months. Closer than ever before. I don't know what has changed, but I just can't seem to live without him next to me on a daily basis. Friday night I am flying back down to San Diego and am looking forward to spending some much needed time with him. I can't wait to hold him in my arms again!!! Besides, I know we will have to celebrate as well together. Now, I am off to drink myself into oblivion.......well at least until I pass out and I don't think it will take much. I am pretty damn exhausted. dyzgoneby Sniper, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the encouragement you have provided me. You really have been my rock through the last few weeks. Your words of wisdom truly have been what has gotten me through. I know that is what you are here for, but I put you through stress you didn't need. I am going to promise to try and not give you as much grief with the next one. I will have faith, faith in myself. Thank you again!!!! I lover you with all my heart, body and soul. Your loving wife....