MIB...Who? Me

Well, we all know over the last few months (ok several months) I have been MIB (Missing in Blogging). As I said on my last post, LIFE has been CHAOTIC and that is a understatement. We moved into our home a few weeks ago (earlier than planned) and it has been wonderful. We both love the house. It has sooo much room for all of us to move around in and not one of us has to been in the same room, not that we would do that. Sniper has been home a couple of weekends in the last month. I feel sorry for him. He has been putting in some quick weekend road trips and busting his ass around here, just to return back to work Monday mornings. Thanks to him, we are all moved in, completely unpacked, house decorated and just in enjoying home life. He has taken care of everything. EVERYTHING! This is just the norm for him, taking care of his baby (me) and his family. We both are getting very used to (and it's hard to say good bye after the weekends) being around each other and the family life we enjoy together. Having both of are families in our home, kids galore (and then some) and us. We been doing quite a bit of entertainment and have yet to have really any quite time together. Unless you count when we finally go to bed in the wee hours of the morning. Someday this will be the norm and we all will be living under one roof full time and not just on the weekends. As I have said before, until he has his surgery and is medically cleared to put in for recruiting duty, this life we live in now, will have to continue on (weekends ever so often). At the rate we/he is going it probably won't happen until early next year. Oh, and it looks like his surgery won't be until sometime in April (unless there is a cancellation in March). Way too close to the wedding. Hopefully that means he will have convalescent leave during our wedding and won't have to take any "leave" time (trying to find something positive out of it). As for the wedding.... The wedding is just 55 days to go (April 21st) and I will be Mrs. Sniper. YEAH!!!! I can't wait. Even though he completed most of the preparations back in December, there is still so much to do. What we have left to do is have my dress altered, wait for the girls dresses to come in, buy his trousers, have the boys fitted for their tuxes, a huge Costco run, get the invitations out (lagging on this one), finalize all the last minute details, finish writing my vows.......there's more, but I can't think straight. Well off to enjoy the last few hours with Sniper and "our" family, before he makes that road trip to work. Dyzgoneby, Longing for the day when we don't have to say see ya in a few weeks (or several weeks).

My Birthday

Just another day. Another day I would like to forget. Partly because I am few short years away from 40. Boy am I feeling it. But, the biggest reason....one year ago today, Sniper was hurt by the IED explosion. Yes, I know, everyone is told me (including Sniper), I need to get over it and not let the day depress me, but it does. I need to not think about it and cherish life. Believe me I do, more than most will ever fathom. However, I have watched him for the last several months go through the torments and the demons he harbors. I watch him sleep, well try to sleep. I watch when he does sleep, the demons he fights. I watch the nightmares come all to quick. I watch his quick temper. I watch him struggle to deal with him trying to understand why he is still alive, safe and sound, home with his family and the other Marine is still in a hospital. The other Marine never to return to his wife and family the way he was when he deployed. I watch his frustrations he deals with on a daily basis. I watch helpless...nothing I can do. I know this wasn't the only time he was hurt, blew up in an IED explosion and another Marine with him was hurt or killed, but this one hit close to home for me.This one I saw with my own two eyes. So, this is a day I would like to forget, though I am extremely grateful I have Sniper home safe and sound. Well at least on US soil....... dyzongeby

Chaotic Life

That sums up our life right now. So much is going on and I have had little to no time to write. Finally after running ragged the last month, I have a few hours to relax. Here is where I come to.... When Sniper was here, we both decided we NEEDED a bigger house. This house was way too small for all of us. Too many kids, not enough rooms, plus extra friends and family here. So, Sniper spent his time looking for a home for us. After he narrowed the list down to a few, he then took me out to look at them. The very last one we looked at, we both fell in love with it. It is absolutely beautiful (I will share pics soon). It is a 3100 sq ft, 5 bedroom, 3 full baths, game room, 3 car garage, a huge kitchen to die for (if you knew how to cook or even like to, I guess I will be learning too), a master closet the size of a bedroom, a pantry bigger than most bathrooms and a 6 jet jacuzzi tub calling our name. Tonight I picked up the keys and we move in, in 8 days. OMG, do I need to get off my ass and pack this house. Sniper will be back here the weekend of the 10th (my birthday weekend) with a few of other Marines to move us. What else has kept us busy..... I have been studying and finally took my Series 66 test and passed it (I failed it the first time around in November). Yeah me!!!! I am waiting until either March or May to take the last one. Not sure yet if I want to do it before of after the wedding.... The Wedding? Still running around like crazy and trying to get everything finished for it. I have been lagging in this department. I still have lots of shopping to do. We are down to 2 1/2 months or 11 weeks or 79 days. WOW, it's coming quick.....Please come faster, I can't wait much longer. Sniper found out yesterday he is definitely having surgery on his shoulder. It has only been 10 months since he was WIA.....not bad. But wait, he won't be able to schedule surgery until mid February for a date of either March or April.....very close to the wedding. At this rate it will be almost a year after he was hurt. UUGGGHHH!!!! Very frustrating. Especially since until he is medically cleared, he won't be able to even put in for recruiting orders. That puts him home here.....if we are lucky..... the end of the year. YIPPY!!! Nothing like being married, yet still living 100's of miles apart. Then again, there is no guarantee that surgery will even "fix" his shoulder and he won't be medically retired after everything is said and done. More frustrations. So as you can see, life has been a little on the chaotic side around here. It's all for the good, just a little crazy. This weekend will be the first time since Sniper has been home from Iraq, that I am not traveling or he is not traveling to see the other one. This has been the longest we have gone without seeing each other (yes, I am whining....I am allowed to). Under normal circumstances, I would have left tomorrow for the weekend, but thanks to the fact that I have to pack, I won't be going anywhere. It has left me feeling a little on the empty side though. No kids, no Sniper, just me.......It has left me wondering what to do with myself. I know....pack. YUCKY, that one sucks ass. If I was in the new house I would just grab a glass of wine, light the candles, climb into our jacuzzi tub and sit back and relax. I guess that will have to wait a few more weeks. dyzgoneby Sniper, I can't wait to see you on my birthday weekend. And yes, I am trying to not let it bother me, even though it does. I look in your eyes and see all that you have been through because of that day. Yes, I know there are other days, that have a similar feel to it, but this one just hit very close to my heart with you. Maybe next year will be easier on the both of us. I love you with all my heart, body and soul.